Dammit..I burned it again..

Yep, I burned the carpet again last night!! ACK!
(oh well, shit happens we move on!...what's the big bad in the bedroom gonna do, take away my birthday?) Pfft.
After my re-dedication the other night and the wonderful workings of the spirits yesterday to rid myself of one more prick male on the farm, I was pretty sure the spirits were telling me it was time to do some 'reading'.
Card reading that is.
I kept hearing the whispers..you know that little voice in your head that sometimes screams at you?
(Yeah..that one.)
So, with eager anticipation of a card reading in my future and a pure refusal to be domestic yesterday, I hurried through what I 'HAD" to do and prepared nacho's for our dinner. They were YUM.

Apparently Ebeneezer was not pleased with my dinner choice. 
(he's all 'southern man' you know, gotta have his meat and potatoes at a meal or I'm being absolutely a bitch lazy and not feeding him properly!)  
Sad thing is he didn't 'SAY' anything, but I could tell by the 'attitude' that reeked from every pore he had, not to mention the sullen look on his face that he was none to happy about it. BAH..he'll get over it. He's like me..he can afford to loose a few pounds too.
(who am I foolin' I could afford to loose A LOT!)

As he prepared to leave for work (YAY!) I perused the internet, facebook in particular and sent the link to this site to a few friends & family. Close friends & family. Total-5. What does that tell you?
(I don't get out much.)
Those 5 that I did send the link to mean the world to me, so it was enough. I'd rather have 5 people who mean something to me then 20 who don't. I'll keep my 5 Thankyouverymuch.

Know this in advance, I do not 'chat' via facebook. For some reason yesterday evening though, the 'chat' feature kept logging me in and for the life of me I could not figure out why! 
(until later)

BING: I got a message. From one of the very special 5 mentioned above. She's a Witch too. She had read the 'about me' part of this site and we began chatting. I told her much more then I've posted on here
(and I prolly will at a later date) 
and she learned a few things about the last 3 years of my life yesterday that she probably didn't want to know.
I released a huge balloon of stuff on her that I probably shouldn't have, but as one of my closest friends and fellow witches, I knew for some reason we had connected on facebook chat this night for a reason.

(The spirits at work again?)

The next thing I know, she is 'channeling' so to speak through her fingers and typing things to me that I needed to hear and understand.
I needed to get my (women) power and my home back. To TAKE it back. I had given it over and Lilith was calling me to take it back. She told me I needed to do a card reading (she did not know I had already planned that) and to do it in circle and call Lilith to me for strength. Ask Lilith to be a guide and a mentor for me for the next season of my life. As soon as possible I needed to do a house & property blessing and banishment. Ok..easy enough on all counts.
We ended up chatting for well over an hour. Remember, I never chat via facebook. I keep that little gem turned off but last night it refused to stay off.
(shrug..go figure).

*Ohh..one thing I must tell you. Once I poured myself out and spoke to my friend she told me this and I couldn't agree more. She said Ebeneezer sounds so much like a Dementor it's scary. She's right, that's exactly what he is and exactly what happens to me when he's about. It's official, I live with a Dementor.
(I hope your a Harry Potter fan!)

Needless to say, when the clock struck 10pm I was kneeling on my living room carpet setting up my circle. I kept things very simple last night but did take into circle all 6 of the various decks I have. I wanted the spirits to guide me in which cards to use.

I skipped the wine ..I was out. (dammit)

At 12:15 I finished my circle, 6 cards chosen, two different decks were used and 3 chosen from each and Lilith was by my side.
How do I know she was by my side?
Well, I was not sure what Lilith may look like, or I wasn't sure until last night, but she did show herself.
Twice.
The first time, I was sitting on the couch feet propped up on the coffee table,  studying the meaning of the cards (which I will post later..it's unreal) and I felt something like a cat tail brush under my leg, at the knee.

I do have a cat, but she's an outside cat mostly and she was not in the house. I thought for a split second it might be my dogs ear because she has this annoying habit of laying right underneath me. I jerked my leg up and peered over the edge of the couch.
No cat, no dog. Hmmm?
The second time, I was still studying the cards, and to my left, I saw a LARGE cat, (about the size of a large Bobcat, maybe a wee bit bigger), stroll by in front of my TV.

(Where's my wine!? OH shit, I'm still out!)

It's back half  was golden in color and striped in a dark grayish black, with a very large tail. NOT FLUFFY, but large, thick tail, not too long.  It's front half was female but still cat like with the striped fur ending about the waist and just the gold continuing up from there until it reached the head, which was again striped with black. She turned and looked at me over her shoulder and was gone. The eyes were big and she appeared to have an almost Cheshire like grin.

(I NEED WINE! Bring me WINE! dammit..where's the tequila?!)

Did this put me at ease?..well, yes and no. Yes, because I knew she was here to guide me and no because if you know the real story of Lilith, she's almost 'bad'. In my life right now though, I need a little bad.

(Besides all that..who the hell wants to see a large spectral cat walking across their living room?? WTH?)

I was up till 3.
I'll post the cards later. After my Dementor goes to work.
Till then.........

The Crone of 'no wine'

Sage.